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Sunday, March 05, 2006

Ignorance Is Bliss

Ignorance is bliss. I never understood this concept before; it seemed like a contradiction in terms. Don’t we want to be in the know? Maybe no. The nature of “not knowing” allows you to behave freely. How liberating - to do things without the question of meaning.

The last decade of my life has been focused on “being aware” - look beyond the obvious and uncover purpose. Although interesting the pursuit to understand - is exhausting (and a little addictive – love those tarot cards). Once you start asking there is always another question to follow. Why did it happen? What does it mean? What did I learn… etcetera, etcetera.

When you linger in constant analysis – everything means something. And so, it becomes frustrating to see people - who don’t seek answers – get what they didn’t ask for. Like watching the health risk unfold with each drive thru or the heartbreaker jump from relationship to relationship – with no consciousness to change. Oblivious to a natural pattern they have chosen to create.

But being aware, you see it. You see it in yourself and you see it in others. You want to show, teach, explain, scream, sing, email – or do what ever it takes to open the eyes that are comfortably shut. Share the insight that will perhaps offer the slightest or drastic shift needed to make a positive difference.

Not everyone wants to receive it though. That is a reality and ignorance is bliss. A counselor once explained “they are behaving exactly as they should given their level of awareness.” As they live, I worry. As they experience, I question. As they accept, I analyze. Perhaps not everyone is meant to dissect life into tiny molecules of existence? Perhaps a heartbreak that instigated a new direction in my life wasn’t a lesson for everyone…but rather, just for me.

Sometimes, when you’ve learned a difficult lesson you have to ask– why? It’s a way to cope. But once you grasp the meaning, there is no turning back (even if you want to). You can’t pretend to not know what you know. Well, you can but than you’re a liar. The idea of being oblivious to the obvious is romantic – like untouched innocence. Living without thinking – open to anything without fear. Wouldn’t it be nice to be there again? Yes. I guess ignorance could be bliss, if I didn’t know any better.

© Desiree Daniel January 6, 2006

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